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Tis a season for change

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 18:42:39 GMT

Dear All,

For the past few months, I have been kinda 墮落. I don't know why, maybe it is because it seems that I am alone in this, and not many ppl can really understand what I am going through.

I really thank all the people that hang out with me in this period of time. It seriously is the time where you need the most support, and I just really appreciate that.

I have a big test coming up in 3 weeks. Not that I haven't started yet, but I'm behind in progress. It is time to return to my best form, the one that spent 3 days to study for OChem and has not spent anytime to study more for any exam. I have 3 full weeks, that is plenty of time for me.

Once again, and I know it is funny, I cannot game anymore b4 12/5. Sorry peeps, and I will still go out and all. Just no more gaming. Time to own this exam and get my job.

Bryan Sheu

Some things in life never change

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 02:39:56 GMT

Dear All,

This is probably my 15th time that I told myself to quit DOTA. I've been playing since freshman year of college which makes it what? 7 years?

How can you possibly play a game for such a long period of time anyway?

Just today I was a little depressed. Just like waves of wanting to play and telling myself to quit DOTA, just like waves of wanting to get drunk-> getting drunk -> not wanting to touch alcohol ever again, this depression comes in waves. Maybe my depression is related to Dota - how is playing a game, and being pretty good at it (7 years experience afterall) going to help me become the person who I want to be?

I am going to take the GMAT in less than 2 weeks. To be honest, I'm quite prepared for it. However, I totally have not completed the rest of my application process, which I'm highly unlikely to get in anyway.

If I have to be here for 1 more year, this job that, to be honest, totally attacks my weakness, is just going to make me an unhappy person for 1 more year. I wanted to switch out of this job, but then i don't want to leave after 1 year in the new job either (sigh).

That also means 1 more year of housing. I don't want to live alone anymore in SF, and my lease ends in end of May. Which means that now, I should be looking for a roommate that wants to live with me in North SF or North East Bay.

Anyway, 1st things 1st:

1. Hwayen Gene Jeff are coming over this weekend. So be a tourist for 1 weekend and then have some fun.

2. GMAT next weekend. For 1 more test, I must be Clutch Sheu (that is my other 1st name). I also need to apply ... if news is good.

3. Dad coming the week after = good food

4. Rocky (my god bro) is coming 4/16

Depending on outcome, I want to move to SF and get a roommate, so my life doesn't seem so lonely anymore (despite everyone visiting me soon which I really appreciate). Best yet if I can find someone ... you know.

If ANYONE wants to live in North SF beginning June (or knows anyone in that manner), please tell me. I'm recruiting my roommate now.

Depressing wave comes, and hopefully soon enough, it will fade again.

-B

360 Degree Turn of My Life

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 03:08:26 GMT

I have turned from the person with the most time in the world ... to suddenly, in ONE DAY, the person with the least time in the world.

I guess everything has its reason behind it, as this is the 1st time since I've been to NorCal that I actually appreciate being single (even I'm surprised).

Jia Yo! I have told selected few already ;), but for the rest I will wait until the process is over before I start telling the whole world about it. I am Bryan Sheu, and Bryan Sheu ALWAYS has time!

-B

The life I want to live

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 03:40:08 GMT

Halo people,

Today, I was fortunate enough to have the chance to listen to a live teleconference, where Chet Holmes got a chance to interview Anthony Robbins (super successful people). After what I heard them say, I finally realized how this world consists of 3 types of people.

a. There are those that just give up about life and don't do anything about it. Those people are on the bottom of this world and probably has given up on everything in life.

b. There are you and me (I don't physically know anybody not in this category) - we want to do somehing in life, however, we don't view ourselves as the top notch people, and will probably spend most of our lives in the middle class/ middle upper class area.

c. There are people like Chet Holmes and Anthony Robbins. After that teleconference, I was wondering how much money Anthony Robbins was sacrificing just to talk on the telephone like that for 2 hours (his time is not the same thing as our time).

It took Chet Holmes 22 years to get this teleconference with Anthony Robbins. Maybe that is exaggerated, but I believe it took at least 5 years to get this 2 hour appt scheduled, and that is kinda ridiculous no matter how you look at it. There are many useful lessons, but the most useful one I found was that we are 1 of 3 types of people.

1. Artists - have the skills to do something (a particular type of job)

2. Managers / Leaders - good at managing people and getting people to do things

3. Entrepreneurs - good at taking the proper risks, combining skills with the leadership and trends to be able to get businesses done well.

Looking at this, he claims that if we constantly do something that we are not good at, that is the reason why we face so much stress. It makes a lot of sense to me: I always thought that the really skilled people, and the "best" one to be, is the artist. I constantly tell myself to be skilled in some aspect, but for me that is either very stressful or very boring (Both Chet Holmes and Anthony Robbins claim themselves to be Artists). However, I'm a natural born Manager. I like talking to people, I like telling people to do what they are best at, I like delegation. Anthony Robbins says that after you know what you are, when you run a business, you don't need to do it all, but rather just hire those in other positions to do the job for you.

I want to be where they are. I want to be able to use my strengths to its absolute maximum and make it so that I will be irreplacable, no matter what I do. Watch me.

Clock

It is time

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 05:25:15 GMT

To get serious about life.

TW was so fun ... and it was really unfortunate that I only have 10 days (or really fortunate that at least I get 10 days) so I didn't get to hang out with everyone nearly as much. Singing 4 times in 10 days is awesome. Clubbing twice (1st time when I was extremely jet lagged, 2nd time ... ) is also very fun. The beach, although I was complaining about it during the whole trip, was very nice (and tiring). Thanks all for making it a wonderful trip.

I was really "tw sick" when I first came back to SF. For one I had jetlag and couldn't sleep at night. Then at work I was super tired and was falling asleep in work, and not working nearly as hard as I should. Then being pretty much alone after spending everynight out with friends is a huge contrast that was hard to bear. But I'm back to reality, and if I am going to climb up this stupid corporate ladder, I'm going to need to work harder and work smarter. It is time to step a foot down, and unlike me in hte past 4 months, live up to how successful people should live.

Thus, conclusion is this - Weekdays I work hard, Weekends I party hard. No more computer games unless there are other people who also want to play them. I am going to study for GMAT, study for CFA, and I am going to read the books I bought + understand about life (investments, health insurance, accounting, etc ...). Aren't taxes coming up soon too? Then in the weekends I will not stay at home at all - Friday all the way to Sunday night I want to be out and meet people / have fun with the people I already know are here.

My word to myself to make sure that everytime I see this post, it is time to get serious about life and do the things that matter the most to me.

-Clock

Friday, January 02, 2009

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 02:30:02 GMT

Happy new year!

2009 shall be the year of a new beginning, new hopes, new actions.

Currently I am in TW, I found my SF connection (person in TW who also live in SF who hopefully I will meet more people through), I hung out with my closest of friends, and I met new people. Great break =)

Unfortunately in my 10 day period I could not really hang out with everyone equally, so it seems like I might have omitted some people to hang out with. May we meet some other day and I will make it up to them.

New beginning everyone!

-clock

Never a Happy Story

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 00:00:01 GMT

I just realized that when I am happy, I just never think of Xanga as a option.

Xanga might as well be called a complain site lol.

Anyway, life in SF is very OK. The job is very ok, social life is very ok, nothing more.

It takes me a year to get used to a new environment... which really sucks, when I am first in an environment and it is not a year yet.

Not to mention an incident that is driving me nuts! I have one thing ~~two things~~ to look foward to before the end of the year - ~~one might end up in a disaster =\ but may end up pretty nice, and the other is~~ TW =)

Except for tears, these lyrics describes my mood 100%:

我要快樂?
作詞：鄔裕康　作曲：林倛玉(林毅心)　編曲：吳慶隆

又被愛傷了一遍
無所謂當作成長
剛剛走開的人煙還點著味道卻淡了

我並不是天生愛寂寞卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我我還是一無所有

我要快樂我要能睡的安穩
有些人不抱了才溫暖離開了才不恨我早應該割捨
我要快樂哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的全都是假的
只有眼淚是真的

把從前想了一遍
謝謝了傷我的人
想做樂觀的人每種雨聲聽了都不冷
我並不是天生愛寂寞卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我我還是一無所有

我要快樂我要能睡的安穩
有些人不抱了才溫暖離開了才不恨我早應該割捨
我要快樂哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的全都是假的
我的決定是對的

In this time of depression I wish you all to feel better than I do.

-clock

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 05:22:56 GMT

Hwayen's wedding was nice, relaxing, and fun (except for sunday)!

Congratulations Hwayen and Jeff, may I wish you a lifetime of happiness!

So who is next?

-B

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 21:26:13 GMT

I have two really bad habits that from today on, I will try with all my might to change:

1. Blaming things on other people. No more complaining about things and pointing fingers at other people.

2. Wondering what would happen if I were in another situation. It is more of: always wishing to be somewhere else or be in a different situation. It is time, where I chooe the decisions I have made, and I am going to stick to my decisions and be happy with where I am.

It is time to change sheu, to make 1 step further to being my own ideal self.

I am on my path to being totally content about my life =)

-prodigy

The Secret

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 07:01:23 GMT

Today, I tried to explain the secret to my ex-roommate Alan. Surprisingly, he treated my strong advice like I was in a cult or something. I guess finally, I am enlightened, so I try my best to let other people know about it too. Whether or not you want to believe, is your matter =). Trust me, the Secret is so incredibly true to the point that it is scary.

Meanwhile, I got my Job offer 11 days b4 Hwayen's wedding, just as I imagined it to be =). Congratulate me bah bwhahaha!

-prodigy